Date: Thursday, January 20, 2005 at 10:58 pm
Subject: RE: Happy New Year
Well, if I recall correctly, that gardening table incident was quickly snuffed out by dad, as I pretended to act like I didn’t know how it all erupted in flame (I’m cracking up as I write this….), but I do remember claiming that I was “just in the garage looking at the shelves when I noticed the flames coming from the basement”. I must have been about 8 or 9.
It was a long night that night as dad grilled me severely and loudly, surely the whole house could hear. About 1/2 hour later, as I finally made it upstairs (time could be radically skewed here as I was so young – probablycmore like 2 1/2 hours), I distinctly remember you meeting me in the kitchen, apologizing for “if I was mean to you or anything”. You were just so apathetic and feeling sorry for the torment I had just gone through, and for what? Just because I wanted to ignite a stupid bag of seeds (laughing histerically now)….So the moral of the story is that you should never play with matches near the gardening table, especially if it’s in the basement of the primary residence….
Now, I’m leaving out the antique dresser that was stored in the garage (I truely believe I was the ONLY one in on this one) and the torching of multiple road signs with flammable spray cans (the enging starting fluid was the best ’cause the flames would throw like 6 feet). I’ll leave you to fill in the blanks.
Mom, seriously, we’re all good kids. Take all of this with a grain of salt. We were just kids looking to have a good time. If it weren’t for Matt F___ I never would have known how to make bombs…….And I was the “bad influence” :-|
Love you all!
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Date: February 16, 2010
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